I went to the gym for 2:00, exhausted and a little out of it and my trainer took one look at me and told me I shouldn’t work out today. She suggested doing a little cardio ifI felt up for it, and I tried 15 mins on the bike then promptly gave up and went to school. I feel heavy and sore and not at all up for pouring slurpees and dealing with teenage gamers tonight, but hopefully they will take pity on the chubby tired girl behind the counter and not be douchebags.

My mom convinced me to go to Edmonton to visit my family for easter this weekend too. I’m pretty sure I will regret it (not the family time but the lack of school work time) but they are moving across the country in June and I’m gone all of May so it’s pretty much the only time I’ll see my parents between now and when we go visit them in October.

I’m not digging this overwhelming feeling of exhaustion and stress. Usually working out helps me deal, and I’m more positive as a result. For now my coping mechanism includes a grande soy caramel macchiato and the banana chocolate chip coffee cake. Hiding my ugly makeupless mug in a cubicle in the library helps too.